My dearest sweet heart,

It's been so long since I've had the coherency to write.

The two circular time platforms have turned in opposite directions. I'm in a different point in time. I'm coherent. I have an idea. I have a clue. Once, in a blue moon I was sitting and playing with 4 jelly beans:

one was blue like the moon
one was green like snow
one was red like wrath
and the last one left...
was yellow like a daisy

I moved them around. Each formation suggested a whole new set of possibilities never imagined before. I've seen the end, I've seen and I've seen an ant walking on the jelly bean, yellow like a daisy.

I moved the red jelly bean into the center, the formation has changed. Wrath was making the other jelly beans shake in fear, they were shaking like crazy dudes. The situation was spinning out of control, I had to put a stop to it (even though I was getting a kick from tormenting the jelly beans...)

The following day:
Sorry about that, but things got a little out of hand. The red jelly bean refused to move from its location, and the others were shaking so hard, I couldn't grasp them. The shaking spread like fire in a dry field and before I knew it, I lost control. My whole world, my vision was shaking (imagine what it would feel like if your eye was shaking independently from your head). I was nauseated.

It's amazing how irrelevant small events can lead to such tremendous aftermaths, isn't it? You look for a specific button, the red button that would launch your spirit—shoot it like a rocket, like a red jelly bean. And it is there at the end of your finger—hanging out on your fingertip. Totally out of reach, a beautifully sweet red jelly bean. Like wrath.

A couple of days later:
I was sitting with my 4 jelly beans, drinking tea.
Green like snow suddenly said,
"See, sea is blue and a million other colors.
Know, snow—is green and a million other colors."

The green jelly bean has a sense of self,
especially when aligned with the red.
The green jelly bean has a voice.
Especially—when there is no noise.

155/65.2 time increments later:
I slept. I was in control.

yours forever
your sunset/sunrise 4/ever yours
yours forever yours